Jessie today is 2 months since I lost you & Gregory. It still seems like I'm in this nightmare and I want to wake up from it. I miss you guy's so much. My heart aches everyday day for you. There's not a minute that goes by that I'm not thinking about you. You are in my thoughts my dreams my everything. I see so much of you in Justin "Bean". How do I tell him that you're gone? How do I tell him that his real mother is no longer here for him? You won't be here for his first day of school or his prom or graduation. What do I tell him? How do I go on without you? Everyone keep saying time will heal all wounds but not in this case. My wounds are so deep there's not enough stitches in the world to close it up. It will be open forever. I won't be able to help you get ready for your wedding. To watch your Daddy walking you down the isle. To tell you just how proud of you I am. And I am So proud of you baby girl. Your life wasn't an easy one but you were on the right path to make it right. I won't be able to see how wonderful you turned out. I won't be able to be a MeMe again. But I do have Justin to keep your memory alive in my heart & soul. I thank you daily for him. You were so unselfish when you let Mommy & Daddy adopt him. You knew it was the right thing to do. And for that I THANK YOU. I just want you both back so Gregory can have his big brother to watch after him and his mother to watch them both grow up to be fine young men. I miss you both and would give my life to have you both back. But I know you are in a better place than I am. Someday we will be together again and be the family I wanted us to be. But for now you are God's Angels. So soar high above the clouds and look after us. I promise you I will do my very best to raise Justin to become a fine young man. To walk with God every day. I also promise you that he will know you and Gregory. With everything I am, I am your Mommy & MeMe. I love & miss you both so much. May you now rest in peace and I will see you one day soon. I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL !!!!!